Press On, Beloved.

We have such a priceless value in knowing Christ, yet we so often find ourselves searching for value anywhere but in Him.  Opening myself back up to the public world with my writing has filled me with such emotion that ranges from being filled up, knowing that this is God's work, to beaten down and completely misunderstood.

Putting my writing out there comes with risk. My heart feels deeply and my words are meant to touch, impact, and provoke thought. At times, I feel nervous about my writing, others, confident. But mostly in the last couple of weeks of putting myself out there again, I have felt insecure. I worry about what the few may think and forget the many who have so lovingly encouraged. I focus on how my words could be twisted by a handful, and lose focus of the many who have found goodness and encouragement. I forget to look ahead to where I am called, finding myself clinging to the past, afraid to keep going.

In the midst of feeling these conflicting emotions, I came across Philippians 3.  Paul had written the Philippians to thank them for the gift they had sent him but also to encourage them to stand firm in the face of persecution and even rejoice, while continuing to press toward the goal:  the believer's heavenly citizenship.  It was when I came across Philippians 3:13-14 that I was suddenly able to see the priceless value He has within me. Paul says:

"No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it {righteousness}, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us."

Paul wants the Philippians to follow his example in knowing that past performance is worthless. Paul works hard to do the works in which Jesus called him to do, even knowing it will bring suffering.

And just like that, I press on. I press on knowing that I am writing for God's glory. The future does not rely on the past.  My future is found in knowing Christ. The value is found in pursuing the prize. Putting myself out there may cause me to participate in suffering, but it is for His gain, therefore, I must keep on in the race for His glory in the ways He has called me to do so, which is to write. If I stop thinking about man and I remember to see the priceless value in which God has in me, I will not fail.

It is not about the good things Paul does, it is about his zeal for working in Christ. At times, my insecurity of failure, of being misunderstood, of being judged takes away that zeal, but going forward, I will be in prayer to work hard at forgetting what is behind and looking forward to what is ahead.

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  1. May we all press on until the finish line, Megs. Thanks for the reminder!